I’ve been re-reading an old favorite, “You Money or Your Life” and am reminded of something I truly believe. I find that as part of the spirituality in the aging process, most of us don’t know when enough is enough. I, for one, never think I am doing enough…with the emphasis on the doing.
Midlife gives us the opportunity to pause and begin to recognize that what truly mattes in life, are not the things we’ve done or the gadgets we’ve accumulated, but the person we have become. I like who I am. I like who I am becoming. Do I HAVE it all? No – nor do I think that’s a goal anymore.
I’m in the process of clearing out – cleaning out old clothes to make room for a new look I am developing. Cleaning out old journals – because they really only capture the moment they were written in, and that moment is no longer important.
Sometimes I grieve for those old moments. Grieving is an important part of moving forward, I believe. But, the grief is simply meant to be acknowledged and noticed and not lived from. I am living from my future – and it is constantly containing newness – different from the young girl who danced and sang. Different from the student and the poet. But, none the less special. I am learning to honor this new moment. I am grateful. Are you?